Dear Sister wife, March 8,2021
Has it really been about a year later since I wrote to you? Really!? Time goes by so fast! I’ve been through all the ups and downs of 2020. Covid has nothing on what I have been through in my submissive wife training that’s for sure. It’s been very humbling to say the least. Most would say it was the worst year of their lives. No toilet paper, no groceries, mask wearing and no clue of what the future will be like. I on the other hand say it was a pretty amazing year of spiritual change through and through. I have a note card that I pinned to the side of my bed. It says “Sometimes it takes 10 yrs to get the change you desperately need.” Well 2020 was certainly my year. I purposefully shifted mindset to the fathers will for my life in all things. One of the main things I did during my walk was, I actually tested the Father 3 times. Yes I know. I also can’t believe I did that either. Like seriously tested him. Looked up and said “if you actually want submission from me, then the next time I disagree or have a disagreement I will keep my mouth completely shut and let Matthew have his way. Let’s see what happens after that God.” And 3 times he showed up during the mental, emotional and spiritual tests (they are always all in one) and during these tests He said I’m right here, you did well Jessie and I will always love and protect you. Matthew always came back to me in love and either apologized for his words when he was frustrated or he just lovingly discussed what happened. EVERY time. When I passed Gods test the 3rd time, I threw up my hands and submitted to all of him. The 2nd time I tested the father was because the 1st time went so well I lifted an eyebrow and thought, “fluke.” Then when the same fluke happened again the 2nd time I HAD to test once more just to make sure. After all, 3rd times a charm right? From that moment on, freedom came for me and the entire household. Didn’t say I got it all down pat but during this transition I was learning a lot. So many times the Father had to nudge me back in my place. But all of that to know I am free! I want to shout it from the rooftop. No more jealousy no more rebelliousness. (Ok. Maybe not entirely no more but I was definitely nowhere I use to be) All that I have in me is the love for the Father. And I know that I know his in depth love for me. It’s what literally keeps me going. If the path that Matthew and I walk down leads us to you, I am ready to be the best sister wife I can be. I’m spiritually trained up and strong. Taught straight from the Father himself. He took the time to train me. I am humbled. I am submissive, I am empathic, I learned hospitality. I can now lower myself. I can be gentle and kind and not make excuses like I use to. I cannot wait for you to be in our lives. But it’s all on Yahs timing. So Matthew and I will continue to pray and wait. However, we can see a gentle, sweet, kind, spiritual silhouette of an uncovered woman out in the distance. The silhouette just split in three. Shorter ones right next to the bigger. Are these children? The image is getting closer but still I can’t tell if it’s you just yet. We are in prayer.